Another First from '72 (postdated) [This post is under construction.]

 If I'm to be truthful.

 

Sometime mid September.

Men's Magazine.

Adult entertainment.

Porn, Pornography, Pornographic materials, 

Sex

Legal adulthood 

Addiction

Coming of age 

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History:

As early as three bodily aware morally aware sensually aware

1958 Uncle’s Playboy Magazine which my twin sister and I discovered together

1960 Dad’s secret pin up calendars 

The Nextdoor gas station office my twin and I could look down and into from the second story back porch of our house. The walls were laden with erotic pinups.

1964 my twin finding a way to jiggle the key to dad’s locker and break in, then calling me over to the trove of porn material within including 8mm movies. Oh, and that 1960 calendar was still there! For the next six years we will return to the locker time and again, though my sister’s interest will wane.

1965 my eldest sister turns 18 and brings home Playboy. Two years later my other sister turns 18 and brings home her boyfriend’s stuff.

July 26, 1968 I become born again. Now the cognitive dissonance starts in earnest.

1970 my twin drifts away from the material, because as she later put it, she was learning it (sex) first hand. She was already dating.  So the porn was redundant and unnecessary.

September, 1972 Of legal age I buy my first three adult magazines. 

1972 ~ 1995 my porn addiction is rampant. My ethical battles are “spiritual”.

By the mid 90’s I leave the faith, but my moral quandary continues. Only now it is along social political lines. What is sexual agency in the light of adult porn, the male gaze, looking, patriarchy, exploitation?[Complicating matters is remembering that my twin was also drawn to porn.]

2026 72 and a virgin still, I still don’t know what to make of sex, erotica, and sexuality.

Up until September 2021, I use to have the entire run of  Oui Magazine from its premiere issue thru 1982 (its last year under Playboy ownership). Most of Playboy. The first three years of Club A bit of Penthouse. Over the years I collected hundreds of back issues stemming from the late 1950's all the way until the present decade of all the popular labels like Adam, Calvacade, Club, Club International, Gallery, Mayfair, Oui, Playboy, Penthouse, Swank, et cetera.  Sadly, the paradox that I am, I let them all go. I could no longer afford private storage for four fifths of my property: books, periodicals, audio, film, video, art, electronics, furniture, telescopic equipment, editing equipment, stereo components, darkroom paraphernalia, camera gear, et cetera. I had to abandon it all having no choice under the circumstances. I even accidentally lost all my precious childhood art from the fifties to the seventies when I took the wrong storage box by mistake and didn’t catch the error until after I had resettled and the storage unit was by now long cleared of all content. Oh well, one day not too long from now, relatively speaking, the world will be cleared of me. Such is life at 72.

-FIN-

9-15-‘73 Peppy

9-15-‘79 Dad’s stroke, George and Marina wed, as do Mia and Gonzalo.

9-15-‘84 I buy my firs car, a blue Plymouth Valiant*. Its license plate: NEU 915 (If you subtract the middle number 1 from 9 you get 8, and if you subtract the 1 from 5, you get 4. 84! 91584!)

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